Thanksgiving just passed.. Very interesting day. Not the normal experience of lots of family
food and fun. This year we went traveling to my son. Lately I enjoy so much comfort of the
car. Knowing I will have time with my hubby... Music and feeling going somewhere with
not allot of effort. Which it great lately because I feel so many aches and pains lately.
The drive was great. Except the nervous coming home in dark with crazy drivers pushing us
to close to cones and feeling like we could crash.
Seeing my son well was great a joy. No crises No big pains. Him working and looking forward to getting his own place. Two girls fighting for his attention and him just happy to have them care.
Now that the day after black Friday stuff just makes me look at this world and shake my head.
I love getting a deal and will not pay full price for many things. I have learned to be cheap.
But going to store on this Friday forget it. But now its ok for it to feel like its Christmas time.
Even though others went from Halloween to Christmas and some would be ready to celebrate
tomorrow. Tree up, presents bought and wrapped, and planning there menus. While I am this
year still enjoying the Turkey and just thinking of a project that I maybe able to do for Christmas.
But my sister N Law says to me this year is called distress time . She had a fire and I have
been in Care giving a sick mom so we are all about keeping things simple.
But I am also in the mists of down sizing and sorting things. If you know we I love calendars
and journal books. I don't have huge collections of books anymore. Since I have the privilege of
the library and my kindle that helps in the area of hording. But I still have the notebooks from
years ago. Plus agenda books as far back as 2006. So as I was sorting threw them taking up
allot of space wondering what to do with them. My heart doesn't want to give them up. The paper
the tags, the pictures, the notes of the day... What to do.. It made me sad taking them apart. But I
did take some apart and let go of some of them. I wish I was in a club of calendar keepers and
knew what they did in the past with theirs. Now that will be a new google search for me.
So December come along with all your treats and Joys. I am keeping it simple and just doing smaller ways of celebrating. We shall see I already feel like this year is different. I hope by the close near to Jan. I will have a better attitude and less stress..
Saturday, November 29, 2014
Wednesday, November 5, 2014
November
Rush Rush Rush.. Months are going by so fast, told the hubby this morning I feel like It
was May yesterday and Now in November. But allot people are already ready for Christmas.
I had a rant on Facebook about this and I still not fully recovered but feel a little better.
Its really hard for me this year nothing seems right. All I am doing paper work for my mom
for a nursing home program. And I am NOT taking time for me JUST to be and have FUN.
What is that word lately. I have forgot how to have fun. It just makes me so sad.
In the past I know fun to be makeup, library, crochet, movies, talking with friends,
taking pictures, beads, drawing, poems, journaling, walking in the park.
Hey that is a nice list. I have to get back to life. I feel like life is passing me bye
and even complaining and panic is more in my life than being thankful..
I know Thanksgiving is this month and its not going to be the same. Hubby family
going away and mom in nursing home... I just have to find a new tradition for me
and the hubby. It takes me being creative but I just have to start thinking.
It seems my creative juices do work when I get OUT and be with other people.
Fears, complaints, all or nothing thinking and depressing thoughts have TO GO!!!
Everyone has pain at some point its just how you want to react to it and your
attitude. For the moment my heart says WITH GOD ALL THINGS ARE Possible.
was May yesterday and Now in November. But allot people are already ready for Christmas.
I had a rant on Facebook about this and I still not fully recovered but feel a little better.
Its really hard for me this year nothing seems right. All I am doing paper work for my mom
for a nursing home program. And I am NOT taking time for me JUST to be and have FUN.
What is that word lately. I have forgot how to have fun. It just makes me so sad.
In the past I know fun to be makeup, library, crochet, movies, talking with friends,
taking pictures, beads, drawing, poems, journaling, walking in the park.
Hey that is a nice list. I have to get back to life. I feel like life is passing me bye
and even complaining and panic is more in my life than being thankful..
I know Thanksgiving is this month and its not going to be the same. Hubby family
going away and mom in nursing home... I just have to find a new tradition for me
and the hubby. It takes me being creative but I just have to start thinking.
It seems my creative juices do work when I get OUT and be with other people.
Fears, complaints, all or nothing thinking and depressing thoughts have TO GO!!!
Everyone has pain at some point its just how you want to react to it and your
attitude. For the moment my heart says WITH GOD ALL THINGS ARE Possible.
Thursday, October 2, 2014
August & Sept and NOW Welcome to Oct
I just woke up from a time warp and realized that two months have gone by.
But that is what happens when you lose computer access and get depressed..
Well I shouldn't say get depressed sink back into depression. I hate the word and believe
most of the time I can fight it and try to be a happy go lucky person. There is just to
much to be thankful in life for and we have so many choices and I do feel that here in
America we have so many blessings.
1. Clean Water- Real happy about this one because we keep having water shut off by city.
2. Electric for our homes.
3. More than 2 pairs of shoes
4. More than 4 different bibles in the house
5. More than 4 different journal books/Pens of every color
6. Food choices- Even at my lowest still had cereal, bagels, fruit or pizza
7. Books- now with the lovely Kindle I can have 400 books in one light weight
machine and don't even have to get up to change a book.
8. Free TV- Yes even though I don't have cable we still have over 30 something channels
that can normally find something.. (but if not READING is much better anyways)
9. A cell phone in which again can look at calendar, calculator, email and games ALL in one
spot..
10. A bed or coach with soft blankets to lay my head..
So THIS is a list for me to remember that I am BLESSED..
AND Most Others are TOO..
But that is what happens when you lose computer access and get depressed..
Well I shouldn't say get depressed sink back into depression. I hate the word and believe
most of the time I can fight it and try to be a happy go lucky person. There is just to
much to be thankful in life for and we have so many choices and I do feel that here in
America we have so many blessings.
1. Clean Water- Real happy about this one because we keep having water shut off by city.
2. Electric for our homes.
3. More than 2 pairs of shoes
4. More than 4 different bibles in the house
5. More than 4 different journal books/Pens of every color
6. Food choices- Even at my lowest still had cereal, bagels, fruit or pizza
7. Books- now with the lovely Kindle I can have 400 books in one light weight
machine and don't even have to get up to change a book.
8. Free TV- Yes even though I don't have cable we still have over 30 something channels
that can normally find something.. (but if not READING is much better anyways)
9. A cell phone in which again can look at calendar, calculator, email and games ALL in one
spot..
10. A bed or coach with soft blankets to lay my head..
So THIS is a list for me to remember that I am BLESSED..
AND Most Others are TOO..
Sunday, July 13, 2014
June and JULY
My Life OH boy... June is gone. Days are fly and I just cant keep up. June has been a real month
of learning for me. My life came to a crash in the middle of May and I just wasn't able to function.
So a New start for me began again. Its been hard getting used to New med.. And I know I am
leaving so many details out. But the speed of the days and me being able to express them hopefully
will come.
July is off to a good start. Back to work and just trying to get back to doing things better.
Thinking of going back to school but that's down the road. But need to put some thought into that.
I so want to get my drivers licence but the way people drive really make me nuts. But then I will
not be any nutty then them.. I have wanted it for So long. I will really celebrate it when I get it.
Wish I had a picture to describe how feeling but not at this time but will not wait so long to keep up with
the blog because I do enjoy doing this exercise .
of learning for me. My life came to a crash in the middle of May and I just wasn't able to function.
So a New start for me began again. Its been hard getting used to New med.. And I know I am
leaving so many details out. But the speed of the days and me being able to express them hopefully
will come.
July is off to a good start. Back to work and just trying to get back to doing things better.
Thinking of going back to school but that's down the road. But need to put some thought into that.
I so want to get my drivers licence but the way people drive really make me nuts. But then I will
not be any nutty then them.. I have wanted it for So long. I will really celebrate it when I get it.
Wish I had a picture to describe how feeling but not at this time but will not wait so long to keep up with
the blog because I do enjoy doing this exercise .
Sunday, April 20, 2014
MAY coming SOON..
MAKE the most of the day.
A great month of wonderful weather.
YOU can begin to enjoy the outside more!
MAKE time to have FUN.
A Time to find What can HELP
YOU and Motivate some joy.
MAKE plans TO
ATTEND a FAMILY WEDDING
YOUR mind can think of wonderful memories.
MAKE gifts for many family birthdays. (4 immediate people, one being my dear hubby)
A Time to Celebrate.
YES to understanding how time flies and need to treasure my dear ones.
MAKE a Goal to take more care of ME.
All the lists I have don't include me.
Yes it does take a reminder for this.
MAKE Plans for the summer.
Adventure needs to return.
Yearly goals only have now 6 months to complete.
A great month of wonderful weather.
YOU can begin to enjoy the outside more!
MAKE time to have FUN.
A Time to find What can HELP
YOU and Motivate some joy.
MAKE plans TO
ATTEND a FAMILY WEDDING
YOUR mind can think of wonderful memories.
MAKE gifts for many family birthdays. (4 immediate people, one being my dear hubby)
A Time to Celebrate.
YES to understanding how time flies and need to treasure my dear ones.
MAKE a Goal to take more care of ME.
All the lists I have don't include me.
Yes it does take a reminder for this.
MAKE Plans for the summer.
Adventure needs to return.
Yearly goals only have now 6 months to complete.
Thursday, April 10, 2014
VERSES ON WAITING
So much of my life I have spent waiting on things...
Dealing with my Mom right now she is very impatient in dealing with her
illness and waiting for things to happen.. She wants everything done NOW and
sometimes I feel like I am the Mom and she is the two year old.
So I decided to use some creative juices and get some bible verses for her and
I will give them to her to put in her purse or maybe even hang on the wall.
(we shall see what I end up doing)
I got 7 note cards. One for each day and I will hope she will take them to heart and
memorize them. I know I hope to! I have a hard time waiting too..
Here are the verses:
2. Micah 7:7
3. Psalm
27:14
Dealing with my Mom right now she is very impatient in dealing with her
illness and waiting for things to happen.. She wants everything done NOW and
sometimes I feel like I am the Mom and she is the two year old.
So I decided to use some creative juices and get some bible verses for her and
I will give them to her to put in her purse or maybe even hang on the wall.
(we shall see what I end up doing)
I got 7 note cards. One for each day and I will hope she will take them to heart and
memorize them. I know I hope to! I have a hard time waiting too..
Here are the verses:
1. Psalm
37:7
Amplified
Bible (AMP)
7 Be still and rest
in the Lord;
wait for Him and patiently
lean yourself upon Him;
fret not yourself because of him who prospers
in his way,
because of the man who brings wicked devices
to pass.
2. Micah 7:7
New
International Version (NIV)
7 But as for me, I watch in hope for the Lord,
I wait for God my Savior;
my God will hear me.
I wait for God my Savior;
my God will hear me.
3. Psalm
27:14
New
International Version (NIV)
14 Wait for the Lord;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the Lord.
be strong and take heart
and wait for the Lord.
4. Exodus 14:14
You will keep
him in perfect peace
Who mind is
stayed on you.
Because he
trusts in you.
5 Lamentations
3:25
The Lord is
good to those who wait for
Him. To the
soul who seeks him.
6 We wait in
hope.
He is our help
and our shield.
Psalm 33:20
7 I wait for the
Lord.
My whole being
waits and
In his word I
put all my hope.
Psalm 130:5
Tuesday, March 25, 2014
A for April
Getting close to April.. Man time just flying by..
So what can we say about A..
April
Abject to having MORE SNOW. waiting for spring to come.. Doesn't seem never will..
Abundant things to do but NOT being able to motivate to do them.
Accomplish One thing at a time. Got my lists and just needing to follow threw.
Anonymous like that word for some reason.. LOL
Abundant of ways to look at a problem.
Able to find away to stay sane.
Adapt to my life now as a caregiver
Appears that I am on a roll.
Apprehend the person who said I was dumb.
Affliction of having people near me who think that life should
Applaud them for being
ALIVE and THANKFUL
Applaud me for wanting to TRY..
Aspire to be a better person.
Audible voice in my head that tells me I will be OK..
Awe of the Friends in my life who seem to make LIFE look easy.
Address the need of Showers in this house.but NOT
Appropriate place to discuss the need for that NOW.. LOL
Animals that are both
Adorable but VERY messy..
Act to become more
Addicted to having a clean house and life.
Appear to be getting close to being
At a pause for this session of As..
I like doing these.. Words are my friends and I always HOPE to learn
new things each day!
So what can we say about A..
April
Abject to having MORE SNOW. waiting for spring to come.. Doesn't seem never will..
Abundant things to do but NOT being able to motivate to do them.
Accomplish One thing at a time. Got my lists and just needing to follow threw.
Anonymous like that word for some reason.. LOL
Abundant of ways to look at a problem.
Able to find away to stay sane.
Adapt to my life now as a caregiver
Appears that I am on a roll.
Apprehend the person who said I was dumb.
Affliction of having people near me who think that life should
Applaud them for being
ALIVE and THANKFUL
Applaud me for wanting to TRY..
Aspire to be a better person.
Audible voice in my head that tells me I will be OK..
Awe of the Friends in my life who seem to make LIFE look easy.
Address the need of Showers in this house.but NOT
Appropriate place to discuss the need for that NOW.. LOL
Animals that are both
Adorable but VERY messy..
Act to become more
Addicted to having a clean house and life.
Appear to be getting close to being
At a pause for this session of As..
I like doing these.. Words are my friends and I always HOPE to learn
new things each day!
196 books idea of books/ smaller version
OK so my close friend posted about a lady read 196 books from other countries.
So I decided I wanted to do a similar project not so much of reading but writing.
But not sure if it would work or if anyone has tried it.
So I decided I like to write and blog and ..
But stamps being expensive not sure if I will do..
50 States.
50 people.
50 Cards.
Maybe it would work what Would be my theme.. ??????
Turning 50
50 reasons to be happy
50 Ways not to be bored
50 Ways to show love for others
50 Ways to make a difference in Life
50 Ways to Think In life.
50 Things to do In life
Oh well just thinking about the number 50.. LOL .
So I decided I wanted to do a similar project not so much of reading but writing.
But not sure if it would work or if anyone has tried it.
So I decided I like to write and blog and ..
But stamps being expensive not sure if I will do..
50 States.
50 people.
50 Cards.
Maybe it would work what Would be my theme.. ??????
Turning 50
50 reasons to be happy
50 Ways not to be bored
50 Ways to show love for others
50 Ways to make a difference in Life
50 Ways to Think In life.
50 Things to do In life
Oh well just thinking about the number 50.. LOL .
Sunday, March 9, 2014
My M's For MARCH
What Can I Say... Well Here are some Mmmms to describe the Month
March..
Moms Birthday Month
Memories are fading of When I HAD fun with Friends
Must find some NEW ways to have FUN
Meet some New people who are caregivers
Make some crafts
Munch on some new Veggies
Meaningful conversations needed to adjust my need for friends.
Meekly and humbly ask for forgiveness of those I have wronged
Meltdowns have to stop, watch for triggers.
Meal times HAVE to get easier
Movement of fun in exercise has to start back up.
Manners needing some updating
Motivated... Need to RELEARN what that means
Money- Think I really need to get a better CAREER NOT just a JOB
Meditate on the GOODNESS of God and BE THANKFUL
Materialize the REALITY of GETTING MY PERMIT!!!
Make PLANS for a vacation!
That's the LIST for March!!
OH ONE FOR M--- WISH I had MAGIC to get this DONE!!!
March..
Moms Birthday Month
Memories are fading of When I HAD fun with Friends
Must find some NEW ways to have FUN
Meet some New people who are caregivers
Make some crafts
Munch on some new Veggies
Meaningful conversations needed to adjust my need for friends.
Meekly and humbly ask for forgiveness of those I have wronged
Meltdowns have to stop, watch for triggers.
Meal times HAVE to get easier
Movement of fun in exercise has to start back up.
Manners needing some updating
Motivated... Need to RELEARN what that means
Money- Think I really need to get a better CAREER NOT just a JOB
Meditate on the GOODNESS of God and BE THANKFUL
Materialize the REALITY of GETTING MY PERMIT!!!
Make PLANS for a vacation!
That's the LIST for March!!
OH ONE FOR M--- WISH I had MAGIC to get this DONE!!!
Tuesday, February 18, 2014
Flowers, Favors and Forget
not a big celebrator for many things.. (birthdays, holidays) He used to spoil me allot more the first
5 yrs of our marriage. But He also has had a bypass surgery and became diabetic
so that changed our lives allot.So this was a VERY nice surprise.
Flowers did help cheer me up from getting kinda a bad report from the doc.
Good news not major surgery ,
Bad news I do have a polyp and small mass in one
ovaries and not sure of the other. And she wants to do out patient treatment. Which I am so
glad about except I am care taking my Mom who WANTS to be waited on hands and foot.
Favor is for that I will find the right answer to handle this situation and also in care giving in
general. Mom is compassionate but also difficult at the same time.I am trying to reach out
online to ideas from care giving sites. And just hope and pray that I can find the right person
to connect with.
I also must say I DO have favor having such a awesome sister N Law that has taught me
so much about care giving. .
Forget.. I hate how things can pass threw my mind so quickly.. Forgetting birthdays..
Which this month I am on overload.. (I had 4 on Feb. 13) I have tons of calendars for this
reason and paper I cant have enough. But lately just seem to not be able to remember
anything. So I just have to write more which is OK because I do LOVE writing..
Tuesday, January 21, 2014
visual blessings: Visual Prayer Ideas & Techniques
visual blessings: Visual Prayer Ideas & Techniques: Listening & Responding to the Holy Spirit in a Visual Way Preparation: ~ Get drawing/art materials & sketchbook re...
I so will look forward to what all I can learn from this wonderful artist and I know it will be such a
wonderful new way of helping my goal for this year to be closer to Jesus!
I so will look forward to what all I can learn from this wonderful artist and I know it will be such a
wonderful new way of helping my goal for this year to be closer to Jesus!
Thursday, January 9, 2014
Happy New Year
Wow 2014 ! We are already nine days into it and just is so amazing how it is flying by..
Been a whole Month since Mom had stints put in her heart.. Now finally back in Rehab
again.. Sadly was a hard day for me and seeing Mom today I just keep realizing how frail life
is and you just never know how long we have with each other..
Through the process I hope this year will bring us into a healthy state of mind with eating..
Since being in hospital Mom has been starting to lose weight.. I hope I can join her this year
and lose weight myself. But not the DIET way or some pill or some new quick fix.. I hope that
I will see my two big GOALS from my bucket list start
1. EAT more Healthy foods.. FRUITS and VEGGIES..
2. Get MY Drivers license and NOT JUST the permit this YEAR!!!!!!
(I have had my permit 3 times but never had a car to take the test)
I am keeping my Goals small this year but these TWO will probably take a
good part of the year to do.. Here is hoping!!!
Here is progress of Mom now moving into rehab! She is such a Trooper!
Been a whole Month since Mom had stints put in her heart.. Now finally back in Rehab
again.. Sadly was a hard day for me and seeing Mom today I just keep realizing how frail life
is and you just never know how long we have with each other..
Through the process I hope this year will bring us into a healthy state of mind with eating..
Since being in hospital Mom has been starting to lose weight.. I hope I can join her this year
and lose weight myself. But not the DIET way or some pill or some new quick fix.. I hope that
I will see my two big GOALS from my bucket list start
1. EAT more Healthy foods.. FRUITS and VEGGIES..
2. Get MY Drivers license and NOT JUST the permit this YEAR!!!!!!
(I have had my permit 3 times but never had a car to take the test)
I am keeping my Goals small this year but these TWO will probably take a
good part of the year to do.. Here is hoping!!!
Here is progress of Mom now moving into rehab! She is such a Trooper!
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