Close to December

Thanksgiving just passed.. Very interesting day. Not the normal experience of lots of family
food and fun. This year we went traveling to my son. Lately I enjoy so much comfort of the
car. Knowing I will have time with my hubby... Music and feeling going somewhere with
not allot of effort. Which it great lately because I feel so many aches and pains lately.
The drive was great. Except the nervous coming home in dark with crazy drivers pushing us
to close to cones and feeling like we could crash.

Seeing my son well was great a joy. No crises No big pains. Him working and looking forward to getting his own place. Two girls fighting for his attention and him just happy to have them care.

Now that the day after black Friday stuff just makes me look at this world and shake my head.
I love getting a deal and will not pay full price for many things. I have learned to be cheap.
But going to store on this Friday forget it. But now its ok for it to feel like its Christmas time.
Even though others went from Halloween to Christmas and some would be ready to celebrate
tomorrow. Tree up, presents bought and wrapped, and planning there menus. While I am this
year still enjoying the Turkey and just thinking of a project that I maybe able to do for Christmas.
But my sister N Law says to me this year is called distress time . She had a fire and I have
been in Care giving a sick mom so we are all about keeping things simple.

But I am also in the mists of down sizing and sorting things. If you know we I love calendars
and journal books. I don't have huge collections of books anymore. Since I have the privilege of
the library and my kindle that helps in the area of hording. But I still have the notebooks from
years ago. Plus agenda books as far back as 2006. So as I was sorting threw them taking up
allot of space wondering what to do with them. My heart doesn't want to give them up. The paper
the tags, the pictures, the notes of the day... What to do.. It made me sad taking them apart. But I
did take some apart and let go of some of them. I wish I was in a club of calendar keepers and
knew what they did in the past with theirs. Now that will be a new google search for me.

So December come along with all your treats and Joys. I am keeping it simple and just doing smaller ways of celebrating. We shall see I already feel like this year is different.  I hope by the close near to Jan. I will have a better attitude and less stress..

November

Rush Rush Rush.. Months are going by so fast, told the hubby this morning I feel like It
was May yesterday and Now in November. But allot people are already ready for Christmas.
I had a rant on Facebook about this and I still not fully recovered but feel a little better.

Its really hard for me this year nothing seems right. All I am doing paper work for my mom
for a nursing home program. And I am NOT taking time for me JUST to be and have FUN.
What is that word lately. I have forgot how to have fun. It just makes me so sad.

In the past I know fun to be makeup, library, crochet, movies, talking with friends,
taking pictures, beads, drawing, poems, journaling, walking in the park.
Hey that is a nice list. I have to get back to life. I feel like life is passing me bye
and even complaining and panic is more in my life than being thankful..

I know Thanksgiving is this month and its not going to be the same. Hubby family
going away and mom in nursing home... I just have to find a new tradition for me
and the hubby. It takes me being creative but I just have to start thinking.
It seems my creative juices do work when I get OUT and be with other people.

Fears, complaints, all or nothing thinking and depressing thoughts have TO GO!!!
Everyone has pain at some point its just how you want to react to it and your
attitude. For the moment my heart says WITH GOD ALL THINGS ARE Possible.