Don't like CHANGE

So many changes for me to adjust to. To say that I don't like changes is a understatement.
I don't want this to be a total complaining session so yes I will end in my grateful list but
for now I must vent.

So I thought going into a change of  NEW technology would be a good thing. Getting smart
phones to have a better phone and etc. For me its been fun but also just another thing to keep
up. Now instead of just keeping track of minutes I have found myself checking making sure I
am not going over the DATA plan. Just another obsession. But I do have less drop calls so for
me a upgrade but not so for the hubby. So he is still in phone misery. I keep saying call the
wonderful ATT people to talk to them. But that's just asking to much.. So I say THAT'S YOUR
PROBLEM.. And I go on enjoying.. Does that sound evil?

The next change is learning to live without his dad and my step dad. I knew it was going to be
hard but I just live in memories flooding me so much of the day. But NO real regrets which I
am sure that is more than allot of people could say. But it just so saddens me that I will not
have MORE time with them till we meet in the next journey.

Another change for me is no longer being part of the fun car pool I had. I still see the group which
is a good thing but the fun we had along the way is now replaced by me being in noisy buses and strangers.
Thank Goodness for my phone and having a books.

My final change is coming in May and it SCARES me SO MUCH! My mom is planning on living with us.
I so feel like I am losing the Independence that I do have. (Which is NOT much) My hubby is doing this as
a promise we made to her hubby. But my biggest fear is losing my hubby and not being able to keep a
relationship with hubby and MOM. I know people do it all the time and its normal to have stress with it.
So I am expecting the worst and hoping that I will be pleasantly surprised with getting some new memories.

So Now after all my complaining here is my GRATEFUL LIST:

1. I am LOVED by God , Jesus and Holy Spirit.
2. I am some what Healthy
3. I have a job. (yes its NOT the best, but it does provide)
4. I have the freedom to go to church each week
5. I have access to music anytime I wish
6. I have clothes that are comfortable
7. I have access to clean water. To drink and bathe when ever I wish
8. I can WALK to library for BOOKS, DVD, and BOOK CLUB
9.  Thankful for Sat. mornings just to BE HOME!
10. I have a sweet FRIEND that I know reads this and Still loves me!

Thanks for taking the time to read the thoughts in my head.