Marching on to March

This for some reason didn't post in March so I am sending it now to update March. I said March but most people are running.. Already talking about Easter that is in April and some stations are talking mothers day! I scream in the car SLOW Down People but no its not happening. Time is moving fast on me. Its already March 7.. Ugg.



So I have many Birthdays this month but two very important ones.. My adopted daughter and my Mom.. Both which are such major part in my life. Demands, requests and Questions they don't stop each week. I learn so much from both of them and do need to be truly grateful and try to make most of my time with both of them. I do truly feel blessed and depressed at the same time.



But they say that spring will start this month and like thousands of others I can truly say I am so ready. The poor people on the east coast can truly hope that it truly will start but I can say I am
sure its going to take a bit longer for them. So another thing to be grateful for NOT to have
to be searching for the side walk.

 

Farwell Jan. February begins wildly

 

On Tuesday January 20th we took our babies to vet and

both were just to sick to come home back to our  home. 

We have had the 15 yrs and I am still in such mourning for them. 

Pets can be better family than humans. They both bought us such

joy. They were my protectors, comforters and companions.

The house feels so empty and I alone but its ok. 

I got a plant. I can light candles. And have a list

of things I can do now that I couldn't when I had the sweet babies.

So now onto February. Birthdays and Valentines. 

They say its a short month and I am sure it will fly

by and I will be wondering what happened.

 

 February started out with a bang. He is a view of us looking at

car and can see the side walk depth of the snow. Yes its the

fun time of winter. A friend told me yes the brave live up north

and the rest go to FL. (alot of our friends do live in the south what does that say)

I

 

JAN 2015 Starting out the year with treasures

Wow where has time GONE... But yes it does go even when you are NOT ready and just
spend days walking in your sleep to get by and look for good moments and treasures.

 

 

Starting with this puzzle from a coworker. Which is 1000 pieces but in hopes

of my husband and family to have fun doing and enjoying each others company.

My NEW 2015 planner that will have to do this year.

Normally I have atleast 2 or 3 but this year No this one will have to

be it.

 

A journal my neighbor gave me .

 

 

 

And the last  treasure I have got this year and love is a blanket

that my dear friend gave me.

It is the softest thing I have felt. Its like the fur from my sweet queen kitten.

I treasure it because its like getting a big hug.

 

I know the bible says a lot of treasures but these things sure help my life down here now

go just a little better each day.

My hopes too that I KNOW things have to get better each day...

Happy 2015..

Close to December

Thanksgiving just passed.. Very interesting day. Not the normal experience of lots of family
food and fun. This year we went traveling to my son. Lately I enjoy so much comfort of the
car. Knowing I will have time with my hubby... Music and feeling going somewhere with
not allot of effort. Which it great lately because I feel so many aches and pains lately.
The drive was great. Except the nervous coming home in dark with crazy drivers pushing us
to close to cones and feeling like we could crash.

Seeing my son well was great a joy. No crises No big pains. Him working and looking forward to getting his own place. Two girls fighting for his attention and him just happy to have them care.

Now that the day after black Friday stuff just makes me look at this world and shake my head.
I love getting a deal and will not pay full price for many things. I have learned to be cheap.
But going to store on this Friday forget it. But now its ok for it to feel like its Christmas time.
Even though others went from Halloween to Christmas and some would be ready to celebrate
tomorrow. Tree up, presents bought and wrapped, and planning there menus. While I am this
year still enjoying the Turkey and just thinking of a project that I maybe able to do for Christmas.
But my sister N Law says to me this year is called distress time . She had a fire and I have
been in Care giving a sick mom so we are all about keeping things simple.

But I am also in the mists of down sizing and sorting things. If you know we I love calendars
and journal books. I don't have huge collections of books anymore. Since I have the privilege of
the library and my kindle that helps in the area of hording. But I still have the notebooks from
years ago. Plus agenda books as far back as 2006. So as I was sorting threw them taking up
allot of space wondering what to do with them. My heart doesn't want to give them up. The paper
the tags, the pictures, the notes of the day... What to do.. It made me sad taking them apart. But I
did take some apart and let go of some of them. I wish I was in a club of calendar keepers and
knew what they did in the past with theirs. Now that will be a new google search for me.

So December come along with all your treats and Joys. I am keeping it simple and just doing smaller ways of celebrating. We shall see I already feel like this year is different.  I hope by the close near to Jan. I will have a better attitude and less stress..

November

Rush Rush Rush.. Months are going by so fast, told the hubby this morning I feel like It
was May yesterday and Now in November. But allot people are already ready for Christmas.
I had a rant on Facebook about this and I still not fully recovered but feel a little better.

Its really hard for me this year nothing seems right. All I am doing paper work for my mom
for a nursing home program. And I am NOT taking time for me JUST to be and have FUN.
What is that word lately. I have forgot how to have fun. It just makes me so sad.

In the past I know fun to be makeup, library, crochet, movies, talking with friends,
taking pictures, beads, drawing, poems, journaling, walking in the park.
Hey that is a nice list. I have to get back to life. I feel like life is passing me bye
and even complaining and panic is more in my life than being thankful..

I know Thanksgiving is this month and its not going to be the same. Hubby family
going away and mom in nursing home... I just have to find a new tradition for me
and the hubby. It takes me being creative but I just have to start thinking.
It seems my creative juices do work when I get OUT and be with other people.

Fears, complaints, all or nothing thinking and depressing thoughts have TO GO!!!
Everyone has pain at some point its just how you want to react to it and your
attitude. For the moment my heart says WITH GOD ALL THINGS ARE Possible.

August & Sept and NOW Welcome to Oct

 I just woke up from a time warp and realized that two months have gone by.
But that is what happens when you lose computer access and get depressed..


Well I shouldn't say get depressed sink back into depression. I hate the word and believe
most of the time I can fight it and try to be a happy go lucky person. There is just to
much to be thankful in life for and we have so many choices and I do feel that here in




America we have so many blessings.




1. Clean Water- Real happy about this one because we keep having water shut off by city.
2. Electric for our homes.
3. More than 2 pairs of shoes
4. More than 4 different bibles in the house
5. More than 4 different journal books/Pens of every color
6. Food choices- Even at my lowest still had cereal, bagels, fruit or pizza
7. Books- now with the lovely Kindle I can have 400 books in one light weight
    machine and don't even have to get up to change a book.
8.  Free TV- Yes even though I don't have cable we still have over 30 something channels
     that can normally find something.. (but if not READING is much better anyways)
9.  A cell phone in which again can look at calendar, calculator, email and games ALL in one
    spot..
10.  A bed or coach with soft blankets to lay my head..




So THIS is a list for me to remember that I am BLESSED..
AND Most Others are TOO..

June and JULY

My Life OH boy... June is gone. Days are fly and I just cant keep up.  June has been a real month
of learning for me. My life came to a crash in the middle of May and I just wasn't able to function.
So a New start for me began again. Its been hard getting used to New med.. And I know I am
leaving so many details out. But the speed of the days and me being able to express them hopefully
will come.

July is off to a good start. Back to work and just trying to get back to doing things better.
Thinking of going back to school but that's down the road. But need to put some thought into that.
I so want to get my drivers licence but the way people drive really make me nuts. But then I will
not be any nutty then them.. I have wanted it for So long. I will really celebrate it when I get it.

Wish I had a picture to describe how feeling but not at this time but will not wait so long to keep up with
the blog because I do enjoy doing this exercise .