Define a new phase in life

Well after a long 8mths of illness our care taking time has come to a end. I have learned so much of
the process of watching a loved one go threw a process of dying.

 Now thinking we did keep a journalof our times with him and If I had the courage I would love to put that into a book but that would needthe permission of other family members.

 Courage is a word to focus on in this new phase of  my life.
That is  a new way of thinking of it. I have created a bucket list so many years ago maybe its time
to get working on that! I need to get busy living! 

Making most of a day

Here is something that never got posted on the right day but still wanted to share. 


Today was a interesting day. I started out thinking of my dear friend of her birthday. She is a amazing single mom of two charming boys. I so admire her! I know that she knows how to make the most of her day
because she has to. So many to do, Cooking, cleaning, feeding them, making sure they are safe and the
list is endless. Makes me tired just thinking of it!

So as I went to work I thought of how I make my time in the day go by. Making at least 100 calls to people
all day hoping that they will be able to go to a group and share the opinions and get paid to do it. So many
rejections I get and each  time I think man I wish it was me and I could go! I would love $ 300-150
for just being with a group of people just sharing time and our opinions. People just amaze me. They say
we all have a story to tell in our lives and each probably can tell the same story differently. 

I then came home ate a sandwich, alone once again. But I had a joy of a phone call asking if I wanted
to watch a DVD with some friends. So being a close neighbor with nothing really to do.(OH I have plenty
of cleaning I could do but NO energy for that or desire) So I watched with them Extremely Loud & incredibly close. A extremely emotional movie. But it so made me think of my life and has given me a
new desire to make the most of my life!

New Challenges

My life has taken a interesting turn. I have been now joined a team of care givers. I always HAVE had
respect for care givers. I know it takes allot of compassion and patience to take care of someone who
is sick. Even more if its someone you love. My parents are aging but are still OK to take care of themselves.
But I know down the road it will not be so. My hubby's dad is now sick and needs 24hr care and we are
part of the team to help. It is sad and draining to watch him suffer.
But now its the time to see about living arrangements. Which is always a big decision even when a person
is well. There is so many things to consider. So once again I am going back to my list of stress busters
that I can do to take hold and take care of me:

1. Read my Bible
2. Read books of encouragement
3. Take Naps
4. Enjoy internet sites : Face book, Pinterest, E Blogger
5. Walks to the Library
6. Showers
7. Phone Calls from Friends
8. Painting my Nails
9. Crochet
10. Writing in my Journal /Drawing

I must say I do Love PInterest so much! Its such good therapy for me! 

Idea of a care giver

February seemed to just fly by. Had lots of Birthdays too! Which for the most part once again I struggle
with what to do. Thank goodness once again I am able to be creative and make gifts. My Brother
loves gum so I made him a Gum card. My Pappa loves my hats I have crocheted so I made him
a new one. And then others I just make cards to what they like in life or how smart they are!!!!

But February also brought a new thought in my life as role of being a potential part time care
giver and looking for assisted living places. For my VERY ill father N Law and also my Mom
has been asking me to look on the Internet. Thank goodness for the Internet!!!

I look at my two dear loved ones and think man how did the years go by this fast
and they get so sick. I know everyone gets older and with age sickness does come.
I feel my bones creak more each day. I can say they have both lived good lives and now
its up to us to make their final days comfortable as possible.I so struggle with the thought of
losing them and how my life is moving into middle age and I still have 30yrs of working to do.
I want to make the most of my days and yet some days its just a fight to keep moving.
But I will just to have to keep singing one of my favorite songs The Joy of the Lord
will be my strength! I will not falter or faint. He will uphold me all my days. I am surrounded
by Mercy and Grace!!!!

This May Be A Dream Come True: Just for Fun - A Blog Game

This May Be A Dream Come True: Just for Fun - A Blog Game

1. Are you eating ice cream right now? Most Defintaely!
2. Why not?
3. Can you make spaghetti sauce from scratch? OH Boy!
4. Why in the world would you do that? LOL
5. Have you ever forgotten the birthday of someone important to you? Not sure, But if I did I would have definately made up for it!
6. What is your favorite cookie? To many to count! But Love cholate chip!
7. Do you have some in the house now? (I'll wait while you check) 2 Crazy CATS
8. Do you live within 100 miles of where you were born? yes, I wish I didnt..
9. Can you ice skate? Used to take lessons but now not sure????
10. Do you take those little soaps from hotel rooms? Love them! Ill never tell!
11. What about the shampoo? Love them! Normally with my hair its gone in one wash. LOL

Being YOU

I once again ran into a Dr. Seuss Quote that I liked:

TODAY you are YOU
that is TRUER than True
There is NO ONE alive
who is YOUER than YOU!

I made me think of when I was young when I was always trying to be something that I was
not. I wanted to be a singing star, skinny, wealthy, and always traveling.

But now I am fine in my skin.
 Yes I would love to be at a healthy weight but NOT skinny by any means.

Singing I am happy just to do in the shower or in my room. Even though I do sing in the
church worship team that will be changing to and its JUST fine.

As far as being wealthy I just want to HAVE enough to pay bills!
I would like to have more to have FUN in free time but that will come!
 I don't have credit cards and its just fine with me.

Travel is the real thing I wish I could say I still long to do. I want to be able mainly
to go see friends and family that are now spread out in so many places.
People are so much MORE to me than Places for me!

Being me is OK and I get more comfortable all the time!

Christmas 2011 New Year 2012

Having tons of computer problems still don't have Christmas pics up yet. But took lots this year!
Had some fun.

But the most important gift I got this year was a reminder from my Sons Girlfriend
that the most important gift I give and have is LOVE and Health! So much of the time I do take
my everyday health for granted. I can walk, hear, talk and see pretty good most days..
Not to mention I don't have heart problems, Diabetic, or cancer. I do know many very inspiring
people that struggle with these conditions each day! So I once again have to say Thank you Jesus!

My favorite holiday is New years Eve! I love the idea of the old year ending and the New begining!
I LOVE calenders as you know, and starting a new Calender is the best! I did get two new wall ones.
(Cats probably for hubbies music and cat room, and a Moody ca lander that is inspirational for the bedroom.
And OH yes I did make the hubby a small stooges calender for by the computer! So we are set!
This year Is something new I have a purse calender that says mom on it that was from 2011 that goes into
2012 (my best friend has a matching one too) So its a new thing that I am taking a old year into a new one!
Very exciting! I know I am a nut! LOL

So as I am enjoying a few days off I plan to savor the last few days in 2011 and Welcome 2012!!!!
May we ALL be Safe, Healthy, and Have a Prosperous NEW year!