A different KIND of Christmas

I knew this year was going to be a hard Christmas because we wouldn't have our Papa Don
who LOVED to be full of cheer at this time of year..

But never in my wildest dream would I ever think that we would be spending Christmas day in a hospital room. Have Pics to prove it! We made the best of it that we could. Needless to say I wanted to
Shoot my husband (calling it a wasted day) And My brother and his wife all they could talk about was
food.. (with my poor mom there NOT able to enjoy anything ) So needless to say I got NO cards out
my joy to do. But I did have a JOY of seeing my MOM be like a child at heart when I gave her
a doll... She was so very happy with it.. Papa Don would always give her Jewelry, Perfume,
and a doll or something that would make noise.. They were just big kids at heart..

 The next holiday coming in my favorite New Years , but sadly I am NOT enjoying it as much as I normally
do because I fell on Ice and Hurt my Shoulder/Arm.. And for some reason this year I only have one
calendar and one Planner.   (When I normally LOVE the dollar store kind, and have at least 3. )
When feeling better me and MOM have to fix this!!!
So much to say about the NEW YEAR but with my Arm starting to really hurt it will have to be
another time!

Cant WAIT to Start the NEW YEAR!!!!!

 

Wow WHAT a week!

1. Mom had a heart Attack
2. My friend who I ride with went NUTS at work.. I hope she has a job Monday.
3. I found the Christmas project for this year!
4. With Moms heart Attack decided to STAY home for Christmas and NOT do annual Event.
5. My sweet kitty is acting weird and I am just not sure how much longer he has.
6. My hubby had 3 days of Late nights and I was alone for 2 nights.. Nice
7. Hopefully today will get to visit with familiar church family. A BIG deal to get hubby to go!

That is the list of high lights. I feel my head spinning. So much to learn, to change, and then the
realization now that at any moment I could lose my mom.. It just hurts so much to think about it.
I have lost many family members it scary to think I only have a few left now. That is why Church
family and friends are so important to connect with... I don't want to feel alone! I know we are
never truly alone and I have my faith but its sure nice to have people to talk to who care.

On another note I did find a easy project to do for Christmas for friends and family which is
been such fun and therapy for me to do. I will do another post of those pics another day!

Thanksgiving 2013

What can I say.. Hubby was not having it this year! He worked the day and then came
and the taste buds didn't work.  But as usual we were with his family and fun was had
by all. Lots of food, games, Tv shows, and of course the phones looking at Facebook

People shopping and putting up trees is big on the to do lists for this weekend. I will
be so glad when the commercials are over about the shopping.  I used to think the shopping
experience was complete happiness but it only lasts for the moment and bills come and
things that are not budgeted bring sadness.
On my to do list is Vegging out and laughing with my son for the few days left that I have with him.


I was so looking forward to having 5 days off. But then the days are slipping away. I am
so glad a friend is coming today today to do the zoo night.. I get to feel young, be with the
young and be with my close friend which is all the therapy I can ask for...

Such fun we had.. Took some cute shots.. I think these two are my favorites! I love Giraffes and the colors of the zebras like a rainbow! It was a fun night and will always cherish my memories!

The Tree

This is the field I walk  before work.

This tree made me so happy the other day. The colors were as a  pic of art!

I love seeing all the colors around. There have been such bright reds this year!

This field has been a walk to remember. In the winter the edges fill with snow and

its been a challenging to walk threw but for now I will enjoy the sites. 

Pain

Last month I started what I feel will bring a new phase of life.

I had this huge shooting pain in my hip. I went to the doc after dealing with it for a few
days and he told me to ice and heat it 10/5 minutes at a time and gave me a muscle relaxant
and sent me on my merry way.  It worked for about a week.

Now the pain is back and decided to find another doc to add to this one! Feeling I need to take
a different route. I have never been much for Doctors or hospitals but I feel a change coming on.
I feel I will be seeing alot more Doctors and maybe even a hospital stay soon. Ugg.

I am a big person of prayers so hopefully I will have a few more visits to the doctor and start
a new plan of treating this.

Sadly this time of year I would have most of my Christmas projects almost done.
(crochet scarfs, Hats, last year it was owls and candy canes) But being in this pain
and the rejection of last year just has me down. I am still hoping to find a easy project
to whip up because I do enjoy seeing happy faces but I am just NOT so sure if its
possible.
Here is hoping!

A emotional and motionless day

Started my day feeling very emotional. A dear friend of my lost his best friend this past Monday.
I have lost many of my loved ones (my brother, a step brother, 2 Grandmas, 2 Grandpas, 1 Uncle and Aunt, a father n Law and 6mths ago a step dad) Losing your loved ones is never easy. 
This is a post that my friend wrote.

Monday evening,  (name withheld for privacy) passed from this earth with his mother, his best friend  and myself holding him and telling him that he is loved. My grief is unspeakable and I have never felt pain like this before. I know that in time it will get better, but He was a big dude with a big presence and he leaves a large void that will never be completely filled. Thanks to all of you and your kind words soothing thoughts and prayers. It is a comfort to my feelings of loneliness.

I thought this was so descriptive. I could feel his pain. I know that I will feel this pain down the road when my dear hubby leaves me from this earth too.  I think of it allot and know that a life can change in a moment. You just never know. 

So feeling this emotion I stayed home from work and was pretty still all day. Did some sleeping and watching  two movies. But that was just noise. I was just in a state of wanting to be still and not have asked any questions or think. 

But now I know time is come I have to make dinner and welcome the hubby home from work and be the nurturer  and soak in more time with being with him.  

So will conclude my emotional and motionless day. 

PS. I know I am very fortune to be able to do this and for some it be a wasted way to spend a day.  But know as I write this I am planning my list of catch up things that I could have done and plan to start them. 

What I hope for today is to begin and do better!

My New Obbession

This summer I reconnected with a high school best friend. We started off having Wed night swims with her two youngest kids. (she has 4)  I look forward to every Wed. knowing that after work I was going to have  a adventure. Always something new a different each time. My friend can get me to eat things I thought I never would. And her hubby likes me coming too because he calls me his drinking Buddie. (which the most I have is one) I love going to her house because I connect with the group of four each for their own personalities.
Its been a real life saver for me in the mix of all the added stress this year.

But back to the obsession my friends SON who is 8 is VERY crafty. He loves beads, yarn, paints, and now
these rubber band bracelets. I had a hard time doing it at first. I was making it harder than it had to be. But even so working with these little rubber bands was NOT easy for big hands. But I am on my way to making my 10th one now and getting the hang of it. What was nice was it was not expensive at all and the bright colors I am having a ball. But I don't know for how much longer because I feel the need to get started on
Christmas crafts. (which I said I WAS NOT going to do this year but I maybe changing my mind)

I am determined to do crochet or loom socks! I hope to find a way of doing it. Not a easy project but I
have been wanting to do them for years.  I will have to do a later post of the details of that!